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For 5 years I was going full out with The Voices Of business - I was coaching 1:1 clients, running Voices programs both online and face to face + hosting & performing in live theatre shows.
I'm proud looking back on what was created, we ran 10 programs and produced 15 live event shows in that time with pretty much each event & show selling out.
Over the last couple of years I've spent a lot of time reflecting on the creative process, what fuels it and what kills it. I've been learning more about the internal subconscious voices & belief systems that can hold us back and how we can free ourselves from old conditioning.
What I didn't know at the time, but can see so clearly now looking back, is that there were more voices to be discovered.
More inner voices that were beginning to arise that I needed to privately get to know and journey with.
What started with 6 voices, within a few years became 9 and now I'm happy to share that there are 12.
12 inner voices (with I'm sure...more to come)
6 Parts of the self that can block us from our true potential:
Doer, Dreamer, Inner child, Inner wisdom, Fear & Shadow.
3 Spiritual Guides we can call upon to integrate more into our true authentic self:
Celebrator, Royalty & Gratitude.
And 3 new relational voices that determine the kinds of relationships we have internally with our voices and externally with people in lives:
Addict, Codependant & Parent.
This work has and continues to teach me so much about the make up of who we are as humans. That whilst our conditioning can be strong, our ability to adapt, grow our awareness and create change can be stronger.
When I hit my rock bottom, I literally was on my knees. My body was completely in survival mode after having experienced the sudden death of our puppy and navigating post traumatic stress in my body.
I got to a point where I felt so burnt out continuously hustling and pushing to create, that I no longer enjoyed creating. I felt disconnected to my sense of purpose, why I was doing it and my inner artist was feeling pretty neglected.
So I took a break. I went through the spiralling inner thoughts of shame-filled motions that I had failed. That's what the shadow voice can do, is berate and also eliminate everything you have worked for, everything you have achieved and done. And focus your attention on what hasn't gone well and what you've done wrong. Then tells you you are wrong. This gave me the opportunity to look at those innate childhood patterns of when I learnt and formed the belief and inner voice that there was something wrong with me (hello codependant voice).
I experienced another level of ego death when I got myself a part time job. But it was managing a mental health program supporting people who hear voices, where I learnt even more about where the voices come from, why they get created and how we can empower and support people to cope with them.
I know...the Universe had a much better plan than I did when I finally surrendered.
And I began rebuilding from the ground up, from having experienced severe anxiety and depression, I took small steps each day to return to the integrated version of myself.
I'm proud to say that from a time of struggling to find consistency, I am nearing over 1000 days of consistent meditation. I walk everyday, I make myself nutritious and healthy meals. I'm working with a personal trainer twice a week and my mind is generally pretty peaceful majority of the time, which for a long time, was certainly not the case.
As I've gotten to know these 3 new voices, I have felt more confident within myself. My self esteem has been able grow and restructure itself because my shadow voice hasn't been allowed to rule. I have come to know that my inner addict also needs to rest, as addiction to people pleasing, my thoughts and emotional reactivity can be pretty exhausting. The codependant voice has allowed me to ground in my true voice on a whole other level. That I can love myself and form a healthier relationship with creative expression and my work and not be dependant on it to fulfil my self esteem or self worth. And the parent voice has given me the sense of nurture and love I was looking for in all the wrong places.
What I have come to understand about this work is that it's a way of being, it's a practise, it's something that can be with you and be applied to all areas of life. Over the years I have been blown away by graduates of The Voices Of Program who've reached out years later sharing about how they continue to feel the presence of their voices characters and how they have had profound moments of feeling like they are living from their true voice. Speaking their truth and feeling more confident to pursue what they love.
My hope is that we can continue to share, reflect and connect on what's truly important:
That there is always hope
That we are never alone
That our voices matter
That it is possible to feel and create inner confidence
That creativity is open and available to anyone - no matter how far away it feels.
With that, it feels full circle to be offering a 12 week online journey of The Voices Of Program, starting August 2nd.
The waitlist is now open and Early Bird goes on sale THIS Thursday.
If you're feeling:
Blocked in your creative expression?
Full of self doubt & loud voices in your head?
Procrastinating on pursuing what you love?
Too concerned about what others think of you?
Holding back sharing your voice, your art, your talent or your heart?
And you want to:
Feel more confident in yourself?
Not care as much what other people think?
Overcome self doubt?
Live from your true authentic self?
Let go of feeling like an imposter every time you step into your power?
Listen to your inner voice and follow what your soul is calling you to do?
Come join us for this transformational experience.
Find out more: The Voices Of Program
Much love,
Tali